I’ve been imagining a pie chart that pictures my surrender lately. For most my adult life, surrender to the Lord was about 95-97%. I always had a sliver of the pie that I felt I could manage. More times than not it was an area of my life I was not willing to surrender.
In early years it may have been taking a peek at some pictures that were outside the boundaries. I could manage that sliver of the pie. After all it was private, didn’t hurt anybody and I liked it, at least it seemed that way.
Later it was, no one can tell me I can’t be friends with a woman! I’m a social person, I’m not out looking for trouble, I can handle it.
Later yet, it became my feeling I have the freedom to drink some alcohol if I choose to. I studied the Bible on it, saw even pastors are allowed as long as they don’t sit too long at the wine. I’ve got this, I will manage this sliver of the pie and by the way, mind your own business.
Needless to say, my experience has been, God does just fine managing the 95-97% percent of the pie I surrender to him. All my life’s problems have come in the 5% that I thought I should manage.
I can hear the Father say, “Son, when you are willing to let me, I’m willing to manage the whole pie!” Unfortunately, I’ve always been a slow learner; I usually learn the hard way. But come to think about it, Moses, David, and Paul seemed to have the same issue. When my best thinking brings me to trouble, trouble often becomes an excellent teacher on becoming willing to surrender!
Today, I’m very contented with the Lord managing the entire pie of my life!