For most my adult life I’ve been in senior leadership. During my time at all the churches I’ve been a part of I have either been the senior leader or part of the senior leader’s team. That is like the last 28 years of my life. I’ve been in a part-time role at church for the last year that finds me about three layers of management below the senior level. I have chaffed at that the whole year. I’ve been half-hearted and on the verge of quitting numerous times.
A week ago on my morning run I sensed the Lord asking me, "Do you believe I am sovereign?" I said, "yes." He continued, "Do you think then if I wanted you to be a senior leader you would be?" Again, I said, "yes." He said, "Maybe you are where I want you for this season of time to learn how to follow so one day you can lead better!"
My eyes were opened and I surrendered to my position and apologized for my being unmanageable as well as half-hearted. I apologized to the young man who I report to at church. Just like that, my repentance brought a new found joy to my role. My whole attitude changed on a dime. I’m excited to serve in my capacity and learn all I can learn. What an amazing thing it is to know the Lord and learn from Him.