But so much has happened. I’ve written some notes on Facebook from time to time instead of in here. I’m pondering writing another book called "Divine Encounters" and came here to see some of them I wrote about. I believe in many ways the search I have been on for the last 10-12 years has culminated. I believe God stripped away layer after layer after layer after layer till finally I arrived at my core issues. I had a very clear sense when I uncovered the last two layers I found what I was looking for. I feel I am finally at a place where I can "forget those things which are behind and press toward the prize of the high calling of Jesus Christ." In Scripture Jesus said, "Get the log out of your own eye before attempting to get the splinter out of someone else’s." Here is an oft over looked statement in that same passage, "Then you will be able to see clearly (diablepo) in Greek which means to see through or discern) to help remove the splinter." I am making this statement in humility but I’ve been doing major log removal in myself for many years as I’ve stripped myself emotionally to the core of my being. Each log I’ve removed, I have noticed a side benefit/curse, I could "see through" the person with the splinter. The log and splinter are the same material just differing amounts. Log removal produces discernment in the area you’ve done the hard work. I feel as I approach my 56th birthday, I’m now prepared to do ministry in a healthy way. Nothing matters now except enjoying the connection to the Father and doing whatever it is He needs me to do. People’s opinions don’t matter, money doesn’t matter, popularity isn’t important all that matters is to leverage my time and resources to achieve whatever it is that God wants me to do for Him. All that matters is to "apprehend that for which I’ve been apprehended."