Alone time

In earlier times in my life being alone was not fun. I remember as a little boy, probably about 10 or 11 being left home alone in the evening a few times. I remember being so scared I got a pellet gun I had and held it in case someone tried to get me. Later being alone meant opportunity to sin. After I became a Christian in my early twenties being alone became a huge time of struggle. The struggle was the war between what I felt I ought to do when alone and other desires common to man that called to me very strongly.
I’ve had a lot of healing in my life and being alone now is something that has become very enjoyable to me. I don’t want to be alone all the time, but I enjoy a few days now and then. It is an opportunity for me to say yes to the Lord, to enjoy reading, to see what kind of thoughts rise in my mind and be able to respond in a good way. Someone said, one sign of emotional health is how you act when you are alone. One of my good friends says, when he is alone he is alone with a crazy man! I want to keep growing so when I’m alone, I’m alone with a man at peace with God and himself.
God uses being alone. He will raise any pain left in my life. He will show me how settled my insides are. He will show me Himself in ways He generally doesn’t show when life is rushing forward. Being alone is a great opportunity to determine how healthy I am at the present.

About Scott Ranck

Enjoying life with my wife Gayle and our Yorkie, Zoe boy. I've come to believe life begins when through brokenness I can embrace it fully and openly. I've learned the human drama is an adventure and all of us are made of the same stuff. The Lord is the only being who knows me fully and he has an individual educational plan of life long learning for me and I'm enrolled. This blog is all about what I'm learning.
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1 Response to Alone time

  1. Gayle says:

    I love reading your ponderings.  Keep sharing where you are and what you\’re learning. They are priceless gems that when I take the time to read and learn from, I\’m richer because of these timeless treasures. Thanks for sharing!
    I love you Babe

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