It hit me one day last week, I am the only person who has been with me every second of my life. Not counting God of course, I’m referring to human beings. No one else knows every place I’ve been, everything I’ve experienced or the thoughts that have lived in my mind and heart. Amazingly, I’ve worked really hard to know myself, especially over the last twelve years. It has been a major undertaking to understand factors that have shaped me, buried layers of stuff and just to get in touch with who I really am.
It also hit me last week, that if all the above is true, and it is still difficult at times to understand myself, my motives and patterns of behavior, how could I ever presume to know someone else enough to have a judgement about them? Maybe this is why Scripture says I am to love you, love you if you are my neighbor, love you if you are my enemy, just love you no matter who you are because I have no idea what you have faced, what life shapers have brought you to where you are today.
If I made New Year’s Resolutions, I would say my desire for this year is to be a safe person, full of real love and grace to all who cross my path this year. I know for that to happen I need to be living in that realm myself, receiving love and grace, allowing myself to live there!